Then he started to talk to me when I was playing Bejeweled on my phone... I didn't talk back to him as 1) I don't like people interrupting me when I'm playing 2) I don't know what the heck is he talking with his African- English... Seeing me not a 'good listener' (who wants to be~), I heard him saying, "You don't like BLACKS?" I don't want to 'hurt his feeling' or make him feel discrimination, I said, "I have no comments on Blacks!" (Stupid me! I shouldn't have said that!!!!!!)
After my stupid head made my mouth said so, he started to talk with me... AGAIN!!!!!!! I was like, CRAP!!! Couldn't he just SHUT UP!!!!!!!!!! I don't know why, he stimulate a feeling in me... a feeling that makes me puke (bwu-lek~) Wanna know what he said? Let see~
"You got a great smile~" Haha, as in sarcastic way, I don't need you to tell me!!!!!!!!
"We could be good friend~" OMG, i wanna PUKE!!!!
"Are you 016?" Why do you want to know!!!!!!!!
"What's your number?" I'll be a DUMB if I gave you!!!!!!!!
"Want to know my number?" WHO CARES???!!!!
"Where are you staying?" MIND YOU OWN BUSINESS!!!!!!!!
... and of course, I did told him... shout to him... IN MY HEART~
To make him stop talking, I tried to call my sister, but she didn't pick up her phone... Then, I played a song and stop it making it looked like my phone rang, and talk alone like an idiot!!! In my heart, I was like "Uncle, drive faster!!!" Luckily, I pretended that my call ended because a few seconds later, my phone rang... And I was like "Thank God!" It was my sister who called asking me when I'm coming back... I told her the bus was late for an hour and I'll be back soon... I wanted to tell her about the man beside me... But I didn't! I was hoping that he would get off the bus soon~
When we finished our conversation, the man suddenly touch my right hand which was supporting my books... I quickly SWUNG OFF his hand and STARED at him!!! I don't like people who I'm not close with, or in this case, people I don't know a.k.a STRANGER make a physical contact with me... Maybe my reaction frightened him or scared him off, his stopped kacau-ing me!!!!! Good!!! We really don't have to maintain our image when we're dealing with people like them... I found myself still TREMBLING though he had left... I know that accoding to the 10 Commandment, we should love our neighbour and our enemy... But how to love or forgive someone like him!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
When I got home, I washed my hands with soap for a few times... Then, I told my sister what happened in the bus and I cried... My sister comforted me, telling me to think as if my hand was accidentally being touch, like all will do, in pasar malam... Her words did comforted me... Baby Pooh also comforted me by not calling me Amoi (like she used to) and giving me a choki choki... I didn't tell mummy what happened today because I don't want her to worry and I'm a BIG GIRL now.... I can handle my own problems~
I don't know what's the intention of God made me facing this kind of situation, but I know there must be a reason which we most of the time don't understand at that moment... Therefore, I hope that someday, when I read back this post, the future me would understand... But for now, I might need a councellor... Need to find time to yam cha with Wei Chiew~
No comments:
Post a Comment