I've been sick since Monday and at first we thought it could be due to my menstrual inbalancy or lack of rest because I've been watching Korean drama with my mum until 4am. Crazy, huh? Well, you tend to continue watching it when you're just a few more episodes away from the ending. So, yeah~ That's how I presumed I get all the back pain.
And then, I feel like throwing up... And it striked my mum that it couldn't be what I presume and for what she presume, I was having a indigestion. Well, how should I put this. Last Sunday, our church had a special event - the Youth Sunday and our refreshment deputy, Auntie Li Yuen ordered 500 mini pizza and I actually had 11 of those, which is about 2% of the overall. I've been craving for pizzas for quite some time and once I saw it, BOOM! I didn't even notice my hands have been in and out from the tray for so many times... GUILTY~~~~~~
So, I've been in the bed for quite some time since Monday for I couldn't sit long as my back shoulder would give me those pain. Seeing me so upset, my parents took me to the clinic nearby yesterday and I was diagnosed of having a flu in the stomach and the nurse gave me tablets which had to be taken after meal and it cost my mum RM 45. Wow, good money~
So, the bad things is absolutely the suffering and the good thing is you can really see how people cares for you. Mummy has been checking me in and out, making sure that I'm not having any fever. Daddy who made that bitter powderish drink for me. Sister who was alert of me being sick and care how I got into it. Brother who gave me comfort by telling me he knows what I'm suffering as he had gone through it. Victoria who was the only person I told about my sickness told to fetch the soft-drink that would make me better.
Thank you all who have been worried of me, especially my sister. And I also pray that Victoria's leg will recover soon too... Now, I just hope that my suffering would end soon and I'll be as healthy as before!!!!!!!!
Thursday, July 19, 2012
Sunday, July 15, 2012
潘多拉的盒子～打开了？
这次版主使用了华文来陈述接下来想要说出的话，
原因在于这会是个打从心底，版主一直想书写的一篇。
就因为这个原因，希望以华文书写可减少闲杂人或熟人的阅读。
我是个再也平凡不过的女生。。。
长相中，肥嘟嘟
矮个子，腿短短
戴眼镜，眼睛小
不灵光，懒惰虫
稍孤僻，朋友少
这样说起来我好像一点也不平凡丫～
因为平凡的女生应该向便利贴妹-陈欣怡那样：
大众化的长相，身材，家境，学历，个子，个性。。。
不过有多少人知道她是块璞玉？
有谁知道只要磨去粗糙平凡的表面，里面会是个宝？
我并不是在吹捧自己，自称是块璞玉。。。
我想说的是，
既然编剧都想得到的剧情，
那现实生活中也有可能会发生吧！
陈欣怡从丑小鸭变成美丽的天鹅，
在事业和感情上都双双谋利。。。
这样的事情也可能发生在地球上某国家的某个幸福人咯～
你或许会说为什么要跟他人比较呢？每个人都有它的优缺点。
也有人会说“人比人，气死人！”
那你有没有想过我为什么会那么爱比较呢？
我是家中的老二，上有姐，下有弟。
我的比较对象往往是我姐，因为她：
比我美
比我瘦
比我高
比我聪明
比我多朋友
比我多才多艺
其实我并不觉得我长相比不上她，因为我觉得：
我的眼睛虽小，但蛮机灵的！
长得虽不抢眼，但挺可爱的！
虽没有樱桃嘴唇，但说起话常使大家开心！
除了身材方面，我觉得我比她强多了！
但大家都会说她漂亮啦，长得像我妈妈啦。。。
我呢？！难道说胖子就不能是漂亮吗？！长相就是一切了吗？！
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身高呢，其实我不太介意，因为她也只比我高四厘米。。。
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脑袋嘛，我也觉得还好，因为我妈妈曾经跟我说过，
虽然姐姐比我有小聪明，但只要我肯努力，我的成绩会比她好！
而我的SPM成绩的确比她优秀，也使的我的父母送我一架相机。
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我唱歌也挺OK的啊, 那为什么只有她是教会的配唱者？
反正我站在台上的勇气都没，所以我无所谓啦。。。
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她从小就很有朋友缘，像个磁场那样能把人都吸到她的周围，
而这也是我最恨但也最羡慕的地方。。。
不知道为何，她小学，中学，大学，甚至教会，
她都结交了很多很要好的朋友，是很好很好的那种。
而我身边的朋友没几个像她的那样。。。
还记得有次我跟她说我很羡慕她有个住那么靠近的朋友，
也希望我有朋友也住在我家附近，你知道她回我什么吗？
她说：“有也不会来找你啦！”
哼！我虽有点吓到，但我并不惊讶，因为我了解她。
我了解她的个性，她朋友不知道的那一面。
当朋友需要她的帮忙时，她会义不容辞地帮忙。。。
可她是个连妈妈在弄晚餐也不会下来帮忙的人，
只会到了菜也上了，饭也盛了才慢条斯理地下来！！！
当人家称赞她很帮的手时，我还真受不了～
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让我生气的是为什么上帝在派我来之前要把一切好的都给她呢？
长相
身高
身材
才艺
小聪明
交际关系
我是可以不要理会他人的言语，毕竟他们有言论权。
一天跟着一天，心里难免长个刺。。。
我真的比不上我姐吗？我真的没有一项比她好嘛？
我注定败在她脚下吗？
说真的，我以前并不在乎这一切，只觉得我姐很棒！
但现在。。。
难道说我的潘多拉盒打开了? 所以我才会开始嫉妒与怨恨？
潘多拉的盒子一旦被打开，一切的罪恶与邪念将会随之欲出。
只留下了“希望”
那我的“希望”是什么？
它会有到来的一天吗？
Goodbye "baby" Goodbye
Well, before you starts imagining how cute Suzy is and how great Min can dance, I'm must apologize for I'm not writing about Miss A today. As you may noticed, the "baby" is in Quotation marks which I actually meant my HOLIDAY... Today, I think I kind of sucked in my piano class and Mr. Lam got so panicked and wanted me to go back to his studio on next Wed and Fri.
Well, it already freaked me out when he said I have to go back there on Wed and Fri at 8am, because I used to sleep until 10am. And I was like "What?! I had to get up at 6am then (so that my mum don't have to go in and out of the house) ..." But I psychoed myself that the class would only last for an hour and so, and I'll be back at home soon and I can on my comp to download the anime and I may take some nap.
When things started to sound good, Mr Lam suggested my mum to leave me in the studio and she can fetch me back around 3pm ... (Thunder Storm >>>>>>>)
Seriously, you call this a holiday?! It SUCKS!!!!!!!!!!!!
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Well, it already freaked me out when he said I have to go back there on Wed and Fri at 8am, because I used to sleep until 10am. And I was like "What?! I had to get up at 6am then (so that my mum don't have to go in and out of the house) ..." But I psychoed myself that the class would only last for an hour and so, and I'll be back at home soon and I can on my comp to download the anime and I may take some nap.
When things started to sound good, Mr Lam suggested my mum to leave me in the studio and she can fetch me back around 3pm ... (Thunder Storm >>>>>>>)
Seriously, you call this a holiday?! It SUCKS!!!!!!!!!!!!
Thanks for listening to mem so patiently...
Here are some of Miss A's pictures as your listening fee>>>
Friday, July 6, 2012
Coco's tuRN...
Well, this post is specially made for my dear Coco. Following April who left us in December last year, Coco is now sick too. At first the hair surrounded her left eye dropped and then swollened and now, reddish... We took her to the vet nearby and she was suspected to have been infected by mites (not quite sure with the spelling), which is some kind of microorganism which would cause the animal to itch. Fortunately, the vet didn't saw one but he gave her a week's supplements of 3 tablets per day and we'll just hope everything will be fine and she can be as active as usual...
In the vet, everyone can carry their dogs in their arm but we can't. We asked for the help of a guy in the vet to carry her from our car into the vet and only today I knew, that she weigh 22kg. The funny thing is when Coco was brought into the clinic, everyone looks worried but once they saw her mouth being tied, they were relieved... Ha, cute~
As funny as it seems, when she was laid on the cold metallic table, she laid there quietly, obediently, just like those in movies. I wonder what's the magic of that table. Hmm >8< Anyway, when she was being examined, or even when we were waiting for our turn outside, she was shivering all the way. And that makes me felt sorry for her. She must be extremely afraid... Being in a totally strange place with all the noise made by all the other animals and her weak condition... Not to forget when we drove her down to the vet, she's been laying her head low... Poor girl~ Luckily the vet is not far from our house...
We'll just hope that her condition will become better and may God healing hands rest upon her...
In the vet, everyone can carry their dogs in their arm but we can't. We asked for the help of a guy in the vet to carry her from our car into the vet and only today I knew, that she weigh 22kg. The funny thing is when Coco was brought into the clinic, everyone looks worried but once they saw her mouth being tied, they were relieved... Ha, cute~
As funny as it seems, when she was laid on the cold metallic table, she laid there quietly, obediently, just like those in movies. I wonder what's the magic of that table. Hmm >8< Anyway, when she was being examined, or even when we were waiting for our turn outside, she was shivering all the way. And that makes me felt sorry for her. She must be extremely afraid... Being in a totally strange place with all the noise made by all the other animals and her weak condition... Not to forget when we drove her down to the vet, she's been laying her head low... Poor girl~ Luckily the vet is not far from our house...
We'll just hope that her condition will become better and may God healing hands rest upon her...
Thursday, July 5, 2012
1h 19m 30s
Today is a veRY gOOd day, because my internet connection is very strong and I've downloaded many animes... Haha, that's solve the mystery of the heat of my modem... You may wonder what is my modem related to the title... Well, there's no connection to it, just tryna share a bit...
(Ah, don't hit me la~) yamete!!!!!!!!
Ahem~ Well, jie jie started schooling today and I was all alone and it felt GREAT with no one snatching line with me and everything load twice as fast as usual...
(Ah, I'm out of topic again, sorry~)
Where was I... Ah, yes. The title is a duration, a phone call duration from a friend of mine. I was shocked when she called and we talked a lot and I felt like we are connected and we share some similar facts.
Xin Lei, thanks for calling by and gave me a wondrous night. May God treat us well in our papers and hope that our meeting with "ChaTime" would be able to held and see you soon!!!!!!!!!!
(Ah, don't hit me la~) yamete!!!!!!!!
Ahem~ Well, jie jie started schooling today and I was all alone and it felt GREAT with no one snatching line with me and everything load twice as fast as usual...
(Ah, I'm out of topic again, sorry~)
Where was I... Ah, yes. The title is a duration, a phone call duration from a friend of mine. I was shocked when she called and we talked a lot and I felt like we are connected and we share some similar facts.
- We are the sampat aka 'sia zha bo' type.
- We are the happy-go-lucky, 'bo yao bo gin' girls.
- We want the attention of our girls but can't take it when they deceived us.
Xin Lei, thanks for calling by and gave me a wondrous night. May God treat us well in our papers and hope that our meeting with "ChaTime" would be able to held and see you soon!!!!!!!!!!
Tuesday, July 3, 2012
For the past 6 months...
Hello, lots of stuff has happened for the past few months, and when I say few months, I meant half year... Sorry for not jotting things down for that time which cause me now some difficulties to recall what has happened during the time...
#1 Well, I had my exam on May and I was sort of afraid that I may screwed my Public Law... I was actually a bit angry of myself for not opening up my mind on the subject and try to cope and understand it... The day before I took my Public, when I was studying in my room, it seemed not that bad from what I thought it been... If only I had noticed this prior to that... Despite of the consequence of my mental-blocked mind, I didn't use my time wisely in the exam which made me only available to finish 3 out of 4 question... Well, I did manage to finish all 4 questions if you consider 1 sheet of paper for the last 2 questions amounts to completion... I'm very dissapointed of myself... The worst is that the question weren't even hard and I strongly believe that if I studied, I WILL score... As expected, lazy me~
Not only that, my Contract paper was the last paper and I had 6 days to study it but I wasted the first 2 days, to play... Can you believe it? If I failed my Contract, it was all because of my own doings. Once I finished my papers, I prayed to God... Up until now, I kept praying to him... Asking him to give me a result that I want, I've studied, I really did... I did't surf the net prior to my exam... I stayed up night... I guess it was my most prepared exam... Alright, I put too much time in my Criminal and I can see that God treat me well and I wouldn't be surprised if I scored well... But I too put in a lot of effort in my CLR and Public Law... I made the effort to check out the actual thing happening in UK and I deserve the marks that I would give myself... For all the effort...
I kept on praying to Him, asking him to give me a blessed birthday present and I could not afford to fail any one of my subject... I never stay in a grade twice, never in my primary and secondary school life, and I couldn't and shouldn't stay in this stage... What would that make my parents be? My parents had gave me lots of freedom and they have gave me lots of courage and encouragement words... They BELIEVED in me...There are also people who are still disbelief of what I am pursuing... And I'm even starting to like what I'm studying, dreaming and imagining what would I be in 5 years time... That's too much to lose if I failed here... I know myself well, I WOULD be discourage now if my result doesn't satisfy me...
I know and understands that human are the same. They are never grateful and satisfy with the things they had in current times. Even though now I'm asking for a passing grade, but when I got my result I would say things like, "How I wish my grade would be higher than this..." For now, I honestly hope to pass all my subject and I can pursue to Year 2... I have higher expectation for my Criminal since I spent too many time on it and I've wrote lots of stuff that ought to give me a grade greater than just passing... My UKT friend, Shy Yuin has texted me that she has passed all of her subjects and I congratulated her... She wished me the best too... If she could do it, I could too... How am I supposed to bear with the stress if I was supposed to stay back a year? I would become Claimant's classmate instead of his senior... I don't want this to happen and I couldn't let it happen!!!
(deep breath)
#2 Sorry for the overflown emotions... Anyway, we also had CMCCKL funfair and eveything worked out fine... Only that the coconuts we prepared were badly injured and every one of them were burst... We never thought that coconut could burst, well at least it shown us that it could... Uncle Lawrence was my TOP NO1 customer and he easily has spent more that RM500 in our stall... Haha >0< And I have somehow knows him more... To cut things short, it was ok and we exceed our expectation...
Blessed be the name of the Lord!!!!!!!
#3 Not long after the funfair we went to Malacca where I received the most shocking news... A girl in my church, Danielle was drowned in a swimming pool and I cried... It seem to just happen yesterday... I asked God why would He take away a 5 year old child? Her life has yet to begin and it was now declared ended? How possible is that? Mummy comforted me by saying that everything happen for a reason... It is noticable that the parents may have been less attentive, allowing the child to run up and down without their supervision... I know this would be a heartbreak to the parents who lost the child and to many others who knew this kiddo. But isn't this outcome too grave to bear? Couldn't He gave them some sign or warning before taking this action? I would ask God about this if ever I could make it to heaven...
Our last memory with her was when I was teching her and her sister our Fathers' Day song and how I make use of their competitive nature so that they'll remember the lyrics and rhythms... And as I expected, they were singing as loud as they could to win the other... Hah >0< Couldn't believe I won't see her again and her sister seems to be more quiet than before... All I hope that there is a good reason behind all of this and the family could get through all of this together...
I've read a book title "Purpose of Life" and the author wrote that everyone came to the earth to serve a purpose and everything we do, if we do it for the Lord, we are serving God. What could then a 5 year old purpose be? My sister told me that there may be people who lived a long life and yet have not accomplish anything in life and there may be also people who didn't live that long but accomplished it. What they accomplished is not an answer any human could give, and I was stunned after hearing this. I'm 19+ and what may I have accomplished? Have I motivated anyone or have I shown God's work and mercy to the people around me through me? Have I touched anyone's heart and make them to believe and surrender all of them to Him? Have I did something that made God proud? Once? Twice? Am I still making God proud?
They always says HAVE FAITH IN GOD, but we always forget this when we are in the downhill of our life. We tend to find our own ways and solve the problem we are facing now on our own... When we got through it, we thought all credits should be given to ourselves... We often forget that what we have, who we are, were given by God and He is always working behind, quietly, striking at the right moment... I know it is difficult but I will try my best to show the people around me that it is ok to uphold everything to God and leave it all to Him and He would not forsake and turned his back on us...
(deep breath again...)
#4 I've went out with Victoria, Bee Kee and Lily in Time Square and we had lots of fun. I'm glad that Lily understands what I'm struggling with Vianne and glad that she's on my side... It really does felt great having someone keeping my back... Anyway, I would definitely hang out with them more often and I hope I can discover more friends that I would be comfortable with and we can talk everything without holding back anything... We could share secrets and keep the secrets together...
Well, these are the summary of my life for the past 6 months and hope more great things would happen soon...
#1 Well, I had my exam on May and I was sort of afraid that I may screwed my Public Law... I was actually a bit angry of myself for not opening up my mind on the subject and try to cope and understand it... The day before I took my Public, when I was studying in my room, it seemed not that bad from what I thought it been... If only I had noticed this prior to that... Despite of the consequence of my mental-blocked mind, I didn't use my time wisely in the exam which made me only available to finish 3 out of 4 question... Well, I did manage to finish all 4 questions if you consider 1 sheet of paper for the last 2 questions amounts to completion... I'm very dissapointed of myself... The worst is that the question weren't even hard and I strongly believe that if I studied, I WILL score... As expected, lazy me~
Not only that, my Contract paper was the last paper and I had 6 days to study it but I wasted the first 2 days, to play... Can you believe it? If I failed my Contract, it was all because of my own doings. Once I finished my papers, I prayed to God... Up until now, I kept praying to him... Asking him to give me a result that I want, I've studied, I really did... I did't surf the net prior to my exam... I stayed up night... I guess it was my most prepared exam... Alright, I put too much time in my Criminal and I can see that God treat me well and I wouldn't be surprised if I scored well... But I too put in a lot of effort in my CLR and Public Law... I made the effort to check out the actual thing happening in UK and I deserve the marks that I would give myself... For all the effort...
I kept on praying to Him, asking him to give me a blessed birthday present and I could not afford to fail any one of my subject... I never stay in a grade twice, never in my primary and secondary school life, and I couldn't and shouldn't stay in this stage... What would that make my parents be? My parents had gave me lots of freedom and they have gave me lots of courage and encouragement words... They BELIEVED in me...There are also people who are still disbelief of what I am pursuing... And I'm even starting to like what I'm studying, dreaming and imagining what would I be in 5 years time... That's too much to lose if I failed here... I know myself well, I WOULD be discourage now if my result doesn't satisfy me...
I know and understands that human are the same. They are never grateful and satisfy with the things they had in current times. Even though now I'm asking for a passing grade, but when I got my result I would say things like, "How I wish my grade would be higher than this..." For now, I honestly hope to pass all my subject and I can pursue to Year 2... I have higher expectation for my Criminal since I spent too many time on it and I've wrote lots of stuff that ought to give me a grade greater than just passing... My UKT friend, Shy Yuin has texted me that she has passed all of her subjects and I congratulated her... She wished me the best too... If she could do it, I could too... How am I supposed to bear with the stress if I was supposed to stay back a year? I would become Claimant's classmate instead of his senior... I don't want this to happen and I couldn't let it happen!!!
(deep breath)
#2 Sorry for the overflown emotions... Anyway, we also had CMCCKL funfair and eveything worked out fine... Only that the coconuts we prepared were badly injured and every one of them were burst... We never thought that coconut could burst, well at least it shown us that it could... Uncle Lawrence was my TOP NO1 customer and he easily has spent more that RM500 in our stall... Haha >0< And I have somehow knows him more... To cut things short, it was ok and we exceed our expectation...
Blessed be the name of the Lord!!!!!!!
#3 Not long after the funfair we went to Malacca where I received the most shocking news... A girl in my church, Danielle was drowned in a swimming pool and I cried... It seem to just happen yesterday... I asked God why would He take away a 5 year old child? Her life has yet to begin and it was now declared ended? How possible is that? Mummy comforted me by saying that everything happen for a reason... It is noticable that the parents may have been less attentive, allowing the child to run up and down without their supervision... I know this would be a heartbreak to the parents who lost the child and to many others who knew this kiddo. But isn't this outcome too grave to bear? Couldn't He gave them some sign or warning before taking this action? I would ask God about this if ever I could make it to heaven...
Our last memory with her was when I was teching her and her sister our Fathers' Day song and how I make use of their competitive nature so that they'll remember the lyrics and rhythms... And as I expected, they were singing as loud as they could to win the other... Hah >0< Couldn't believe I won't see her again and her sister seems to be more quiet than before... All I hope that there is a good reason behind all of this and the family could get through all of this together...
I've read a book title "Purpose of Life" and the author wrote that everyone came to the earth to serve a purpose and everything we do, if we do it for the Lord, we are serving God. What could then a 5 year old purpose be? My sister told me that there may be people who lived a long life and yet have not accomplish anything in life and there may be also people who didn't live that long but accomplished it. What they accomplished is not an answer any human could give, and I was stunned after hearing this. I'm 19+ and what may I have accomplished? Have I motivated anyone or have I shown God's work and mercy to the people around me through me? Have I touched anyone's heart and make them to believe and surrender all of them to Him? Have I did something that made God proud? Once? Twice? Am I still making God proud?
They always says HAVE FAITH IN GOD, but we always forget this when we are in the downhill of our life. We tend to find our own ways and solve the problem we are facing now on our own... When we got through it, we thought all credits should be given to ourselves... We often forget that what we have, who we are, were given by God and He is always working behind, quietly, striking at the right moment... I know it is difficult but I will try my best to show the people around me that it is ok to uphold everything to God and leave it all to Him and He would not forsake and turned his back on us...
(deep breath again...)
#4 I've went out with Victoria, Bee Kee and Lily in Time Square and we had lots of fun. I'm glad that Lily understands what I'm struggling with Vianne and glad that she's on my side... It really does felt great having someone keeping my back... Anyway, I would definitely hang out with them more often and I hope I can discover more friends that I would be comfortable with and we can talk everything without holding back anything... We could share secrets and keep the secrets together...
Well, these are the summary of my life for the past 6 months and hope more great things would happen soon...
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