faLLinG SLowLY

So, before I start, I'll have to warn you in advance that this particular post will be more like a picture post rather than a wordings post because of all the nice pictures I've collected. Bulky. So, the drama I've recently watched was the WILD ROMANCE, if you consider watching it halfway through till the end equivalent to 'watched'.

A simple graph to explain the relationship between the characters of this drama.

You may seem unfamiliar with this drama but it caught quite some media and fans (most likely boysss) attention as one of the cast was a member of Korean famous girl group - Girls Generation

JESSICA aka SICA

Her role is an innocent but yet talented artist who wants things her way at the starting for the circumstances she was placed at. Then she grew more understanding and more self-dependant.

Anyway, she does looked cute in this drama.

That's what matters most, isn't it?

The main and absolute reason I watched this drama was because of him. He is just C.U.T.E!!!!!!!!! He was called the 'robot' as he mostly speaked in monotone and he was kind of emotionless even when he was dating (sort of) Dong Ah, who was the friend of the leading female role.

After I can't take his charm and good looks anyway,

I went to stalk him online.

He's actual name is KANG DONG HO.

And I know why I fell for him after all the stalking.

He was borned on the same day with me,

just 5 years prior than mine.

I think he look GREAT with his specs.

You know, there are some people who are born to wear specs with class and style and he is one of them apart from Gu Tin Lok.

The other reason I was a supporter of this drama was because of her - Lee Si Young (on the left)

This was her look in this drama,

Curly bird-nest hair with man clothings.

But I can guarantee you, if this is the first drama you watched that she acted, it's quite unlikely you'll be obsessed with her because the first time I saw her was in Boys Over Flowers where she played a role of a student who get close to Geum Jan Di in order to play revenge with the main character. She was more chubby and more bubbly there. If you really want to find out more about her, make a point to watch Playful Kiss.

Ta-da~

I completely fell in love with this character once I saw her.

She was so gorgeous, smart, wealthy and confident.

Every aspects that makes a woman jealous.

She is a GODDESS!!!!!!!!!

Good thing came in pairs!!!

Wondering why I'm back so early today?

Mr. Lam needed to rush to his orchestra member and practise with them as they will be performing on this coming Sunday. Supposedly, I can left with my parents and happily be on the way back home. BUT! They requested Mr.Lam to listen once more to my pieces and that! made me shivered. I don't blame all this to them. In fact, it was the presence of Yue Sum that made me shivered and as a consequences, I made tons of mistake. In front of a friend that is younger than me, but taking the same grade as me. Holy cow!!!!!!!!!

I was moody when I got back home and I'll practise like mad if I could!!!!!!

I think I should change the title to GOOD + GOOD = BAD

Blessing in Disquise

So, let's run some background here.

I was sent to Mr Lam's studio to practise as my Piano exam is on WED!

Really reluctant to go there!!!!

But few things happened made me feel not so stress.

1) I saw Yue Sum also practising there. At least it made me feel not so lonely and there was also a friend I know was being stressed up by the exam.

2) Mr. Lam treated us CORNETTO!!!!!!! Friends close to me know I love food especially junk food.

For this Cornetto, my hell trip today was not so much of a hell thing.

Piggie Reunion

So, today was a great day because I went out with my secondary schoolmates. I remembered when we were in Junior 1, we take up family roles like I am the Pig Papa and juan is the Pig Mama and we have 4 daughters, 1 son, 1 grandson and a cat! Yeah, pretty confusing!!!! I don't even knew I've became a grandpapa until lately. Anyway, papa drove me to Time Square and I was thankful to him as I don't have to wait for the LRT at Miharja and then switched from Hang Tuah to it's Monorail Station. I got a call from juan, my wife on the way and with her slight British slang, she asked where was I? I startled for a few moments and then replied I was arriving, approximately around 10 mins. Before she end the conversation, she told me that the daughters have accompanied Mien to LawYatt to repair her laptop which was still under warranty.

Papa dropped me at the Monorail Station opposite to Time Square. So I thought, Ok! I'll just have to take the escalator up, touch my TnG on the machine and walk to the other end and get off. Except I didn't expect that I'll have to wait for 2 mins before I can passed through the other end. After a long 2 mins, I went in and rushed to Starbucks as planned and saw juan sitting there with her slim long legs crossed. And when I greeted her, I told her how astonished I was when I heard her speaking on the phone with her and clearly she hasn't noticed the difference between her slang and my slang. It was fun speaking in full English with someone that you used to speaked in another language aka Chinese. We talked about the weather in UK, the food, the school, the cost of living and also boys. But the boys topic was mainly brought up when we were dining at BBQ Plaza. After some times, my daughters arrived and my family was finally, partially reunited!!!

While waiting for Mien who was in the DIGI.

We had our lunch at BBQ Plaza.

This! Is the power of multi-tasking

Mien2 who just got back from Taiwan.

Ah~~~ I might be attending their graduation in Taiwan.

So wanna time to fly...

It's a good thing that I brought this two came.

They were the ones that bbq the meat for us.

bobo from Changia

When I heard her said the word "changia", I was surprised.

Thinking that "here goes another K-Drama addict"

SHOCKING!!!!!!

Changia got bobo from her Mr.RobertSomething on last March and we was like asking how does it taste? Whether it was just a 1 second kiss or a French Kiss? And she got totally blushed when we asked her whether there were tongues involved. Looking for her reaction, it was an affirmative.

I LOVE MY FAMILY!!!

At first I thought it would be odd as juan has been studying in UK and Mien in Taiwan and the other two though are in M'sia but we seldom hooked up. I amend. We haven't been seeing each others since our last gathering at TAO which was held for the farewell of Mien. In fact, there weren't any oddness in this reunion.

We talked, we laughed, we taked pictures,

just the way I planned it to be.

A relax and entertaining and memorable reunion.

It's my b.i.r.t.h.d.a.y.

Today is my birthday, so papa took us out for dinner. At first, he wanted to bring us to a restaurant we used to go in Ampang for the cheap cheap price. I, to be truthful, wasn't really very happy coz I was thinking that "It is MY birthday! Shouldn't we be eating something nicer and more delicious with greater surrounding like soothing instrument playing as we walked in?" So, I was quite moody throughout the journey. Well, maybe God sees it so the restaurant had a day off. Woohoo~

Then papa asked whether we want to have western in Shop A or Shop B, which both are located in Ampang too. I voted for the Shop B because the portion is super big and cheap. You could definitely classify me as those who seeks food in quantity and not in quality. To me, I'm satisfied as long as I'm full and the priceI'm paying for is reasonable. Taste is secondary to me. On the other hand, my sister and brother voted for Shop A because they said the taste was better. Papa, who seems to foeget who's the boss today a.k.a. ME headed to Shop A and found it too was CLOSED. Hallelujah, PRAISE THE LORD.

So, all left for us is Shop B and when we reached there, the door was wide open for us and we had great great food. Too bad I didn't bring my camera. We had a big plate of western with 2 piece of chicken served with french fries, eggs, breads and coleslaws. Then we had a big plate of prawns and lastly we had our main course which was Hainan Mee. That dinner cost my papa RM60. Maybe was the price or was it the food and fellowship or was it the HK drama (Gong Ju Ga Dou) that screened on the TV, I had a perfect night!!!!!

BBBBEEEESSSSSSSTTTT Birthday Present EVER!!!

Hey~~~~
Sorry I can't stop giggling because I'm finally relieved!!!! Like I said in my previous post, I was exteremely erm, unstable and desperate and frustrated for I was not able to check my results as it was still "unavailable for online" for me. So, I went to watch a Korean TV Show for distress purpose.

HEROES

until Seong Seong called and asked whether

I would like to have a drink.

aka GongCha

I wasn't really in the mood of going out as I was so stressed up and I wouldn't want to take my sight off the computer screen, but she was good in persuading. It was raining, so we went to Leisure Mall with my sister as she too has some stuff she wanna buy from the Popular. After parking, we went to Popular first and then we went to buy some breads from the Bakery Story and we shared and talked and laughed. Technically, it was her who bought the breads as she paid for it and didn't claim it from us. So, thank you Seong Seong for the treat. Hehe~

The results was released around 6pm just when we got back from my distress-purposed trip and I really thank God for what was given to me and I credit all I've gain to him. Most importantly, I made my parents PROUD and I felt great!!!!!!!!!!!!

Gosh, it's KILLING me!!!

Man, the Board still hasn't send me an email with a link that will lead me to my result. Gosh!!! It's freaking scary and driving me crazy. I'm quite confident with my Criminal and CLR papers, but not quite sure about how did I do on my Contract and Public Law.

AAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I've been awake since 6AM for I set alarm on my memo for today and from thence, I'm awake. And now, there's even rumours that the result will only be released by 11am BST aka around 6pm of our Malaysia time. Oh, gosh~ How am I supposed to do during this window period. And worst! 6pm is like my whole  neighbourhood are online and everyone will be logging in to that particular site. Slow connection and high possibility of internet crashed.

For now, I'll be like that...

Untitled...

Today, I had a not-so-ordinary day. I went to visit Auntie Millie who was in PJ University Hospital after she had her 9 hours esophagus operation there. Apart from she could eat anything and having slight difficulties in breathing and talking, she's fine. Auntie told us, using the diagram below, that part of her esophagus has spoilt, so the doctors had to cut off part of her stomach to replace the spoiled ones. God truly is healing her and we held her hands and prayed for her before we left.

The diagram she drew explaining the details of her operation.

It came handy as the diagram speaks.

Thank you for the A&W treat, LeeYng...

And it was fun driving without knowing which direction to go...

Despite all the fly-aways, I think I did a great job...

Feel great when mama said,

"Aiyo, your hairstyle so hard to tie~"

Haha, looks like I've found something that I like and I'm good at,

* clap clap clap clap clap *

I feel happy today, because I don't have to go for my piano detention class....

YAYAYAYAAYA!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Why must you...

Haiz, haiz, haiz, haiz, haiz....
Please allow me to sigh for a couple few times before I start...

So, I finally said it. I told my mum when she picked me up from Mr. Lam's that I wouldn't want to continue my piano lesson after I'm done with my Grade 8 Practical. I added on saying that I would pay for my own lesson if I wanted to continue it in the future, which is HIGHLY IMPOSSIBLE... I'm not interested in music, as in playing music instruments and not in listening them. I like listening to them, but not the ones that adores Mr. Lam but hypnotise me to SLEEP. Baroque, Classical, Romantic, Modern Age, blah blah blah. I like acoustic music, those soothing ones. But like to listening to them doesn't meant I will or honestly I could, play them. So why waste money for me to learn piano when I'm not even close to interested to? I barely touch the piano, and I would only touch it on Friday night, before my Sat morning lesson. Well, speaking the truth does makes me feel embarrassed and ashamed, but yet it is the T.R.U.T.H!!!!! Sending me for piano class and paying the fee is an investment with no returns, it's like dumping money into the sea...

That little background of fact like do you some understanding of my current state of opinion on piano. Let's continue. So, I told my mum that after my Practical, I would like to stop coming to the studio and rest for awhile and if I really want to take my Grd 8 Theory, I'll come back. And she replied that I'm almost at the end of run and stopping now is unreasonable and foolish. Ahem, that's sort of her reply, from my interpretation. So I counter-argued that I can continue with my Theory, no problem, but she must bear and accept the most likely and possible and oversightable consequence which is F.A.I.L-ing it. It's the natural consequences after all. Doing something that you don't like, you wouldn't put your whole heart and effort in it, thus you wouldn't succeed in it. Common sense, right?! But still she doesn't buy it. She said therefore I must worked hard so that I wouldn't have to resit the exam if I failed. One thing I didn't told her, I would try to put all my efforts in my upcoming Piano Practical Exam, which is on the 22nd, and on my Theory (if I'm forced to). But if I failed, I'll take it as God's plan and I wouldn't retake or resit the damn exam.

THE END!!!! END OF CONVERSATION!!!
NO MORE CHITTY CHATTY... 

The GOOD and BAD things of being SICK...

I've been sick since Monday and at first we thought it could be due to my menstrual inbalancy or lack of rest because I've been watching Korean drama with my mum until 4am. Crazy, huh? Well, you tend to continue watching it when you're just a few more episodes away from the ending. So, yeah~ That's how I presumed I get all the back pain.

And then, I feel like throwing up... And it striked my mum that it couldn't be what I presume and for what she presume, I was having  a indigestion. Well, how should I put this. Last Sunday, our church had a special event - the Youth Sunday and our refreshment deputy, Auntie Li Yuen ordered 500 mini pizza and I actually had 11 of those, which is about 2% of the overall. I've been craving for pizzas for quite some time and once I saw it, BOOM! I didn't even notice my hands have been in and out from the tray for so many times... GUILTY~~~~~~

So, I've been in the bed for quite some time since Monday for I couldn't sit long as my back shoulder would give me those pain. Seeing me so upset, my parents took me to the clinic nearby yesterday and I was diagnosed of having a flu in the stomach and the nurse gave me tablets which had to be taken after meal and it cost my mum RM 45. Wow, good money~

So, the bad things is absolutely the suffering and the good thing is you can really see how people cares for you. Mummy has been checking me in and out, making sure that I'm not having any fever. Daddy who made that bitter powderish drink for me. Sister who was alert of me being sick and care how I got into it. Brother who gave me comfort by telling me he knows what I'm suffering as he had gone through it. Victoria who was the only person I told about my sickness told to fetch the soft-drink that would make me better.

Thank you all who have been worried of me, especially my sister. And I also pray that Victoria's leg will recover soon too... Now, I just hope that my suffering would end soon and I'll be as healthy as before!!!!!!!!

潘多拉的盒子～打开了？

这次版主使用了华文来陈述接下来想要说出的话，

原因在于这会是个打从心底，版主一直想书写的一篇。

就因为这个原因，希望以华文书写可减少闲杂人或熟人的阅读。

我是个再也平凡不过的女生。。。

长相中，肥嘟嘟

矮个子，腿短短

戴眼镜，眼睛小

不灵光，懒惰虫

稍孤僻，朋友少

这样说起来我好像一点也不平凡丫～

因为平凡的女生应该向便利贴妹-陈欣怡那样：

大众化的长相，身材，家境，学历，个子，个性。。。

不过有多少人知道她是块璞玉？

有谁知道只要磨去粗糙平凡的表面，里面会是个宝？

我并不是在吹捧自己，自称是块璞玉。。。

我想说的是，

既然编剧都想得到的剧情，

那现实生活中也有可能会发生吧！

陈欣怡从丑小鸭变成美丽的天鹅，

在事业和感情上都双双谋利。。。

这样的事情也可能发生在地球上某国家的某个幸福人咯～

你或许会说为什么要跟他人比较呢？每个人都有它的优缺点。

也有人会说“人比人，气死人！”

那你有没有想过我为什么会那么爱比较呢？

我是家中的老二，上有姐，下有弟。

我的比较对象往往是我姐，因为她：

比我美

比我瘦

比我高

比我聪明

比我多朋友

比我多才多艺

其实我并不觉得我长相比不上她，因为我觉得：

我的眼睛虽小，但蛮机灵的！

长得虽不抢眼，但挺可爱的！

虽没有樱桃嘴唇，但说起话常使大家开心！

除了身材方面，我觉得我比她强多了！

但大家都会说她漂亮啦，长得像我妈妈啦。。。

我呢？！难道说胖子就不能是漂亮吗？！长相就是一切了吗？！

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身高呢，其实我不太介意，因为她也只比我高四厘米。。。

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脑袋嘛，我也觉得还好，因为我妈妈曾经跟我说过，

虽然姐姐比我有小聪明，但只要我肯努力，我的成绩会比她好！

而我的SPM成绩的确比她优秀，也使的我的父母送我一架相机。

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我唱歌也挺OK的啊, 那为什么只有她是教会的配唱者？

反正我站在台上的勇气都没，所以我无所谓啦。。。

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她从小就很有朋友缘，像个磁场那样能把人都吸到她的周围，

而这也是我最恨但也最羡慕的地方。。。

不知道为何，她小学，中学，大学，甚至教会，

她都结交了很多很要好的朋友，是很好很好的那种。

而我身边的朋友没几个像她的那样。。。

还记得有次我跟她说我很羡慕她有个住那么靠近的朋友，

也希望我有朋友也住在我家附近，你知道她回我什么吗？

她说：“有也不会来找你啦！”

哼！我虽有点吓到，但我并不惊讶，因为我了解她。

我了解她的个性，她朋友不知道的那一面。

当朋友需要她的帮忙时，她会义不容辞地帮忙。。。

可她是个连妈妈在弄晚餐也不会下来帮忙的人，

只会到了菜也上了，饭也盛了才慢条斯理地下来！！！

当人家称赞她很帮的手时，我还真受不了～

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让我生气的是为什么上帝在派我来之前要把一切好的都给她呢？

长相

身高

身材

才艺

小聪明

交际关系

我是可以不要理会他人的言语，毕竟他们有言论权。

一天跟着一天，心里难免长个刺。。。

我真的比不上我姐吗？我真的没有一项比她好嘛？

我注定败在她脚下吗？

说真的，我以前并不在乎这一切，只觉得我姐很棒！

但现在。。。

难道说我的潘多拉盒打开了? 所以我才会开始嫉妒与怨恨？

潘多拉的盒子一旦被打开，一切的罪恶与邪念将会随之欲出。

只留下了“希望”

那我的“希望”是什么？

它会有到来的一天吗？

Goodbye "baby" Goodbye

Well, before you starts imagining how cute Suzy is and how great Min can dance, I'm must apologize for I'm not writing about Miss A today. As you may noticed, the "baby" is in Quotation marks which I actually meant my HOLIDAY... Today, I think I kind of sucked in my piano class and Mr. Lam got so panicked and wanted me to go back to his studio on next Wed and Fri.

Well, it already freaked me out when he said I have to go back there on Wed and Fri at 8am, because I used to sleep until 10am. And I was like "What?! I had to get up at 6am then (so that my mum don't have to go in and out of the house) ..." But I psychoed myself that the class would only last for an hour and so, and I'll be back at home soon and I can on my comp to download the anime and I may take some nap.

When things started to sound good, Mr Lam suggested my mum to leave me in the studio and she can fetch me back around 3pm ... (Thunder Storm >>>>>>>)

Seriously, you call this a holiday?! It SUCKS!!!!!!!!!!!!

Thanks for listening to mem so patiently...

Here are some of Miss A's pictures as your listening fee>>>

Coco's tuRN...

Well, this post is specially made for my dear Coco. Following April who left us in December last year, Coco is now sick too. At first the hair surrounded her left eye dropped and then swollened and now, reddish... We took her to the vet nearby and she was suspected to have been infected by mites (not quite sure with the spelling), which is some kind of microorganism which would cause the animal to itch. Fortunately, the vet didn't saw one but he gave her a week's supplements of 3 tablets per day and we'll just hope everything will be fine and she can be as active as usual...

In the vet, everyone can carry their dogs in their arm but we can't. We asked for the help of a guy in the vet to carry her from our car into the vet and only today I knew, that she weigh 22kg. The funny thing is when Coco was brought into the clinic, everyone looks worried but once they saw her mouth being tied, they were relieved... Ha, cute~

As funny as it seems, when she was laid on the cold metallic table, she laid there quietly, obediently, just like those in movies. I wonder what's the magic of that table. Hmm >8< Anyway, when she was being examined, or even when we were waiting for our turn outside, she was shivering all the way. And that makes me felt sorry for her. She must be extremely afraid... Being in a totally strange place with all the noise made by all the other animals and her weak condition... Not to forget when we drove her down to the vet, she's been laying her head low... Poor girl~ Luckily the vet is not far from our house...

We'll just hope that her condition will become better and may God healing hands rest upon her...

1h 19m 30s

Today is a veRY gOOd day, because my internet connection is very strong and I've downloaded many animes... Haha, that's solve the mystery of the heat of my modem... You may wonder what is my modem related to the title... Well, there's no connection to it, just tryna share a bit...

(Ah, don't hit me la~) yamete!!!!!!!!

Ahem~ Well, jie jie started schooling today and I was all alone and it felt GREAT with no one snatching line with me and everything load twice as fast as usual...

(Ah, I'm out of topic again, sorry~)

Where was I... Ah, yes. The title is a duration, a phone call duration from a friend of mine. I was shocked when she called and we talked a lot and I felt like we are connected and we share some similar facts.

1. We are the sampat aka 'sia zha bo' type.
2. We are the happy-go-lucky, 'bo yao bo gin' girls.
3. We want the attention of our girls but can't take it when they deceived us.

When she raised a topic, words automatically flow from me and I'm glad that I can just speak my mind, without any second thoughts, worrying of the feeling of the reciever because I know she's the type that doesn't mind. As I am the type that is quite sensitive and could sense the feeling of my speakers, which sometimes misdirected me, this time... Through her, I sense that she would be someone I would want to hang out with.

Xin Lei, thanks for calling by and gave me a wondrous night. May God treat us well in our papers and hope that our meeting with "ChaTime" would be able to held and see you soon!!!!!!!!!!

For the past 6 months...

Hello, lots of stuff has happened for the past few months, and when I say few months, I meant half year... Sorry for not jotting things down for that time which cause me now some difficulties to recall what has happened during the time...

#1 Well, I had my exam on May and I was sort of afraid that I may screwed my Public Law... I was actually a bit angry of myself for not opening up my mind on the subject and try to cope and understand it... The day before I took my Public, when I was studying in my room, it seemed not that bad from what I thought it been... If only I had noticed this prior to that... Despite of the consequence of my mental-blocked mind, I didn't use my time wisely in the exam which made me only available to finish 3 out of 4 question... Well, I did manage to finish all 4 questions if you consider 1 sheet of paper for the last 2 questions amounts to completion... I'm very dissapointed of myself... The worst is that the question weren't even hard and I strongly believe that if I studied, I WILL score... As expected, lazy me~

Not only that, my Contract paper was the last paper and I had 6 days to study it but I wasted the first 2 days, to play... Can you believe it? If I failed my Contract, it was all because of my own doings. Once I finished my papers, I prayed to God... Up until now, I kept praying to him... Asking him to give me a result that I want, I've studied, I really did... I did't surf the net prior to my exam... I stayed up night... I guess it was my most prepared exam... Alright, I put too much time in my Criminal and I can see that God treat me well and I wouldn't be surprised if I scored well... But I too put in a lot of effort in my CLR and Public Law... I made the effort to check out the actual thing happening in UK and I deserve the marks that I would give myself... For all the effort...

I kept on praying to Him, asking him to give me a blessed birthday present and I could not afford to fail any one of my subject... I never stay in a grade twice, never in my primary and secondary school life, and I couldn't and shouldn't stay in this stage... What would that make my parents be? My parents had gave me lots of freedom and they have gave me lots of courage and encouragement words... They BELIEVED in me...There are also people who are still disbelief of what I am pursuing... And I'm even starting to like what I'm studying, dreaming and imagining what would I be in 5 years time... That's too much to lose if I failed here... I know myself well, I WOULD be discourage now if my result doesn't satisfy me...

I know and understands that human are the same. They are never grateful and satisfy with the things they had in current times. Even though now I'm asking for a passing grade, but when I got my result I would say things like, "How I wish my grade would be higher than this..." For now, I honestly hope to pass all my subject and I can pursue to Year 2... I have higher expectation for my Criminal since I spent too many time on it and I've wrote lots of stuff that ought to give me a grade greater than just passing... My UKT friend, Shy Yuin has texted me that she has passed all of her subjects and I congratulated her... She wished me the best too... If she could do it, I could too... How am I supposed to bear with the stress if I was supposed to stay back a year? I would become Claimant's classmate instead of his senior... I don't want this to happen and I couldn't let it happen!!!

(deep breath)

#2 Sorry for the overflown emotions... Anyway, we also had CMCCKL funfair and eveything worked out fine... Only that the coconuts we prepared were badly injured and every one of them were burst... We never thought that coconut could burst, well at least it shown us that it could... Uncle Lawrence was my TOP NO1 customer and he easily has spent more that RM500 in our stall... Haha >0< And I have somehow knows him more... To cut things short, it was ok and we exceed our expectation...
Blessed be the name of the Lord!!!!!!!

#3 Not long after the funfair we went to Malacca where I received the most shocking news... A girl in my church, Danielle was drowned in a swimming pool and I cried... It seem to just happen yesterday... I asked God why would He take away a 5 year old child? Her life has yet to begin and it was now declared ended? How possible is that?  Mummy comforted me by saying that everything happen for a reason... It is noticable that the parents may have been less attentive, allowing the child to run up and down without their supervision... I know this would be a heartbreak to the parents who lost the child and to many others who knew this kiddo. But isn't this outcome too grave to bear? Couldn't He gave them some sign or warning before taking this action? I would ask God about this if ever I could make it to heaven...

Our last memory with her was when I was teching her and her sister our Fathers' Day song and how I make use of their competitive nature so that they'll remember the lyrics and rhythms... And as I expected, they were singing as loud as they could to win the other... Hah >0< Couldn't believe I won't see her again and her sister seems to be more quiet than before... All I hope that there is a good reason behind all of this and the family could get through all of this together...

I've read a book title "Purpose of Life" and the author wrote that everyone came to the earth to serve a purpose and everything we do, if we do it for the Lord, we are serving God. What could then a 5 year old purpose be? My sister told me that there may be people who lived a long life and yet have not accomplish anything in life and there may be also people who didn't live that long but accomplished it. What they accomplished is not an answer any human could give, and I was stunned after hearing this. I'm 19+ and what may I have accomplished? Have I motivated anyone or have I shown God's work and mercy to the people around me through me? Have I touched anyone's heart and make them to believe and surrender all of them to Him? Have I did something that made God proud? Once? Twice? Am I still making God proud?

They always says HAVE FAITH IN GOD, but we always forget this when we are in the downhill of our life. We tend to find our own ways and solve the problem we are facing now on our own... When we got through it, we thought all credits should be given to ourselves... We often forget that what we have, who we are, were given by God and He is always working behind, quietly, striking at the right moment... I know it is difficult but I will try my best to show the people around me that it is ok to uphold everything to God and leave it all to Him and He would not forsake and turned his back on us...

(deep breath again...)

#4 I've went out with Victoria, Bee Kee and Lily in Time Square and we had lots of fun. I'm glad that Lily understands what I'm struggling with Vianne and glad that she's on my side... It really does felt great having someone keeping my back... Anyway, I would definitely hang out with them more often and I hope I can discover more friends that I would be comfortable with and we can talk everything without holding back anything... We could share secrets and keep the secrets together...

Well, these are the summary of my life for the past 6 months and hope more great things would happen soon...